So, Sam and I just were making an account for her on Amish Online Dating. She was pretty nervous during the whole process. I remember back to when she was helping me with my account a few years ago. She was fearless about it. I think, in Sam’s case, as you get older your fearlessness goes away. I think it’s just a sign of her maturing.
She’s always been the type to take risks and do gutsy things. Now that she’s gotten a bit older she’s been thinking before she does. I’m very happy about that. I’ve been waiting for that day when she finally realizes that you need to think about the results of your actions. She’s growing up so fast!
“Pen, I’m nervous…this is too soon.” She closes her laptop and holds onto it like a stuffed animal.
“What? Too soon? Why?” I sit up on her bed.
“Yeah, it’s just. I need some time to get used to being a single mother before I start dating again. I was thinking…if I get heartbroken again, I couldn’t take it. I’m still heartbroken. I just need sometime to relax.”
“Oh…” I just sit there and think. “That’s fine. I just wish you would have told me.”
“I know, I know. I was all ready and excited on the outside, but I still have my doubts. Just give me some time, OK.”
“Of course, sissy.” I pat her back.
“Can we do something fun this weekend. Just the two of us?”
“Yeah,what did you have in mind?”
“Can we go to a bunch of boutiques? Just spend the day shopping. Doing girly stuff. Eat girly foods. Sing girly songs.”
“Take a girls day?”
“Yeah! Well, more like a ‘boys are stupid’ day.”
“Sure!” I laugh. “That’s sounds really fun. This Saturday?”
“That works for me!” She bites her lip. “I just need to get my mind off of everything. You know?”
“I totally know what you mean.” We hug.